"Mess" lyrics

How do I lay this down?
Every time you're around
I wanna be close to you
Move in the way you do

Know that you know me best
Feel your name on my chest
When I'm with you, it's rest
Why am I such a mess? Oh

Holding my hand 'til 3 in the morning
Pouring my heart in pieces
Too scared to say it sober, get it over my lips after taking a sip
I'm so problematic, acting erratic, how do I feel?
Don't wanna listen, got some ambition to hate what is given

And I just wanna go home
I'm glad that you didn't leave me alone
So why did I leave the best thing I had?
It's sad that I run to somebody else
'Cause I'm too afraid that I'll mess up the one thing that's good in my life
Mm-mm, it's the one thing that's good in my life

How do I heal my head?
Take back some things I said
Erase the in-between, pick up mistakes by me

Maybe I've learned my lesson
Got a lot of confessing
Consequences undressing
Is this a curse, or is this a blessing?

Holding my hand 'til 3 in the morning
Pouring my heart in pieces
Too scared to say it sober, get it over my lips after taking a sip
I'm so problematic, acting erratic, how do I feel?
Don't wanna listen, got some ambition to hate what is given

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