"A Fucking Disgrace" lyrics

I've got the blues but it don't really show
'Cause I keep it hidden way down below
My personal pain and my personal strife's
Got nothing to do with how you live your life
Why should I burden my friends with my shit
It's mine to deal with and I'll handle it
So tell me no secrets, I'll tell you no lies
I don't have it in me to look in your eyes
I need some time and I just want some space
Sometimes I feel like a fucking disgrace to us all
A fucking disgrace to us all

I've got to choose, got to do what it takes
But it's hard to move when I'm pulling the brakes
It's all in my head I don't know why I worry
I'd rather be safe I don't want to be sorry
I take no actions and I make no moves
I act like there's nothing that I need to prove
At the end of the day I feel unsatisfied
Like I was a cheater but I haven't lied
When I'm feeling sad and I need an embrace
Instead I just feel like a fucking disgrace to us all

A fucking disgrace, a fucking disgrace, a fucking disgrace to us all
A fucking disgrace to us all
A fucking disgrace, a fucking disgrace, a fucking disgrace to us all
A fucking disgrace to us all
A fucking disgrace, a fucking disgrace, a fucking disgrace to us all
A fucking disgrace to us all
A fucking disgrace, a fucking disgrace, a fucking disgrace to us all

I never lose but I don't finish first
Sometimes it feels like I'm under a curse
I still struggle on, play along with the game
I don't show my feelings and I hide my shame
I sometimes pretend that I'm participating
But my mind is wandering while you're debating
I don't always follow, it's not the case
Instead I just feel like a fucking disgrace to us all

I feel confused like I'm ready to burst
I feel like I'm living my life in reverse
What can I do to break out of this mould
I'm so sick and tired of doing what I'm told
If I make my own choices and stop being nice
If I follow myself and take my own advice
If I take myself seriously from the start
If I go with my instincts and follow my heart
If I exit the race, if I find my own pace
Maybe I wouldn't feel like a fucking disgrace to us all

A fucking disgrace, a fucking disgrace, a fucking disgrace to us all
A fucking disgrace to us all
A fucking disgrace, a fucking disgrace, a fucking disgrace to us all
A fucking disgrace to us all
A fucking disgrace, a fucking disgrace, a fucking disgrace to us all
A fucking disgrace to us all
A fucking disgrace, a fucking disgrace, a fucking disgrace to us all
A fucking disgrace to us all