"The Cure & The Poison" lyrics

It's the payoff the reward
The release from all the tension
The biggest vice in my life and it adds a new dimension
It's the beauty and the beast
It's my fall and it's my savior
A good excuse for self abuse that changes my behavior
I love it and I loath it with a passion that's superior
It fucks with my emotions and it makes me feel inferior
It breaks me down and then builds up a wonderful illusion
That brings out my emotions and adds to the confusion

It's not a problem I can do just fine without it
But I wouldn't chance it that's the fucked up thing about it
It pulls me in and spits me out without a second warning
It puts me right out in the cold
While it's busy warming
It's a hopeless competition and there's no way I can win it
But I never tend to see the signs while I'm stuck right in it
I play the game and lose the game
There's no way to avoid it
'Cause I'm too busy fucking up pretending I've enjoyed it

The cure & the poison
The loss and the gain
Escaping once again
The cause and solution
The pleasure and pain
All run through my veins

All I need is just one more I promise I'll be fine
It's really just a harmless way for me to kill some time
I'll sit back and lose my track and work hard on a case
It helps me blur out all the sharpest edges in this place
It always gets the best of me while being entertaining
But in the end there's not a single ounce of sense remaining
I scraped myself up off the floors and mend the broken pieces
And do it all again, the vicious cycle never ceases

The cure & the poison
The loss and the gain
Escaping once again
The cause and solution
The pleasure and pain
All run through my veins