"cynical" lyrics

Strange reflections at the river's edge
Warn you not to utter the unsaid
Who are we when all this falls
Elastic lightning thunder stole
Tracing daylight with my middle finger
Apprehensive, anxiety lingers
Feel like I'm feeling nothing at all
Like I'm drowning, everything at once
Save me from myself tonight
Call for me straight through the wild
Wind picking up, it's a sign
This meant something to me, but why?

You were so blinded by lies
I think that guy's full of shit
Cracking your iPhone at Six Flags
In the car taking a hit
I'm having a panic attack
And you ask me to hit it again
I say okay, but my body's vibrating and I feel like literal shit (CMTEN)
Why did I write this again?
Oh yeah 'cause I'm an idiot, man
Can't keep attention on a thing I'm motivated but for what, damn
I'ma go get a gas station hot dog and then throw up for several hours
But at least I'm not thinking of you
I don't know what to do, I don't know what I'm after

He's so wonderful and I'm so cynical
I can't get over it
I, I fucked up everything
Say my name again
It makes me smile when I don't feel anything
'Cause I just fear everything
He's so wonderful and I'm so cynical
I can't get over it
I, I fucked up everything
Say my name again
It makes me smile when I don't feel anything
'Cause I just fear-