"Apparition" lyrics

Apparition is a name for a friend
That goes away in the end

You were my cancer and you kept me going
And all this time, all I could do was feel you and touch you
And steal the blackness of your skin
But it became the blackness of your heart
And inside it was just black and I just... had to laugh

Ha ha ha-ha
Ha ha ha-ha-ha

You're my cancer

And all this time I thought that you were same
That you were
Just definitely have changed
And changed back into what it used to be
And I just thought you'd never be again
But there you go again... spinning 'round and 'round

Ha ha ha-ha
Ha ha ha-ha-ha

Hello... hello?
It's... it's as if it's real