"Double Life" lyrics

Since 2006 I haven't been the same
Between fiction and fact, which one of us changed?
Now I'm a mother of three, not living for myself
I'm dancing right here, but my heart is somewhere else

Sing my songs, bang my head
Rush me home, back to bed

When you live a double life, it's dangerous
Oh, not to feel loved, not to feel
Keep it calm, calm, calm
It's dangerous, oh, not to feel loved, not to feel

I've been trying to get a grip for all eternity
I know we don't know a man who acts maternally
Now I'm on the brink of civil war, me in gender-fluid jeans, so small
I'm dancing right here, but my heart is always torn

Sing my songs, bang my head
Cry my tears, baby's breath

When you live a double life, it's dangerous
Oh, not to feel loved, not to feel
Keep it calm, calm, calm
It's dangerous, oh, not to feel loved, not to feel

Oh, oh-oh (Work it out, child, work it out, child)
Oh, oh, oh, oh-oh (Don't you feel more dead than alive?)

When you live a double life, it's dangerous
Oh, not to feel loved, not to feel
Keep it calm, calm, calm
It's dangerous, oh, not to feel loved, not to feel

When you live a double life, it's dangerous
Oh, not to feel loved, not to feel
Keep it calm, calm, calm
It's dangerous, oh, not to feel loved, not to feel