"Disciplined Breakdown" lyrics

I never ever can remember
All the things that go bump in the night
Quietness uncovers, betrayal now hovers
And my comfort level's not quite right...

Well I'd love to stay and evaluate
But my torture can't wait...
It seems I'm, I'm losing ground
Welcome all, to my disciplined breakdown

I never ever can decipher
Who listens to the words I say
While I sense I'm searching
I never know who's lurking
To scare my sacred thoughts away...

Well I'd love to hang and chat a while
But my mind's become vile...
It seems I'm, I'm losing ground
Welcome all, to my disciplined...
Breakdown reality. Breakdown my ability
To get it back... I wanna get it back...
Breakdown honesty. Breakdown now
Deliver me from all this madness and all this agony

I never ever can contribute
To finding all the faults that sustain
Never mind the answers
To who spreads the cancer
When the questioning of "Why?" remains

Well I'd love to sit and rationalize
But my tongue's become dry...
It seems I'm, I'm losing ground
Welcome all, to my disciplined breakdown
Breakdown... Breakdown... Break...