"ashes...?" lyrics

I love you

[comehelpglo:]
Ay, it's 10:05, I'm fuckin' high
My lungs are fried and my brain just died
I got black jeans with ash on the side
I got a bad bitch, but I'm numb inside
I'm paralyzed from all the dope
My mind is frozen, my heart is broke
Like, why'd you go? Can't let you go
Inside the mirror, I lost my hope
I hate my face, I hate my ways
I hate the things that I used to say
I'll disappear without a trace
I don't want your help, so get out my way
My nose has been leakin'
Demons in my dreams, they scheming
Dead friends come alive when I'm sleepin'
Like, what the fuck is the meaning?
I cannot seem to find the reason
God lied, 'cause I'm still bleeding
God lied, 'cause I'm still bleeding
God lied, 'cause I'm still bleeding

[comehelpmae:]
I am only seventeen, my dad tellin' me that I am his problem
Wish my mama woulda came back home that night, 12 came and got her
I got opium inside my veins, [?]
Stay up at night, demons gon' smoke away, my brain is just rotten
Oxycontin, I'm floatin' high, lay me to rest
So many nights, I go without no sleep, I wanna go to bed
This coke is heavy on my chest, I get toxic on the ex
Keep sending me breakup texts, keep reading past paragraphs