"bleak midwinter" lyrics

I've been all alone (You did good, $lick)
(It's a smash)
No one left to call
I've been all alone (Lonely boy)

Yeah, mind full of noise, but my body still
Too scared to look inside, I can't face the guilt
(Okay, okay)
I'm hearin' they like me better when I'm takin' pills
Shit (Okay)
And they not wrong for real

I'm tryin' my best to be a good man
(Okay), even when it look bad
Release this if I die, written on journals in a book bag
So much I won't look at
So I get hard to look at
Catch me if you can, baby, I'm too far to look back
Yeah

Just keep runnin' and runnin' and runnin', yeah (Keep runnin' and runnin' and runnin')
Just keep runnin' and runnin' and runnin', yeah (Okay, yeah, hold up)
Just keep runnin' and runnin' and runnin', yeah (Keep runnin' and runnin' and runnin')
Yeah, just keep runnin' and runnin' and runnin', yeah

A prey to misery and some depression, yeah (Turn me up)
Guess I got things that I struggle acceptin', yeah
I know I love them, but struggle connectin', fuck
What the fuck is wrong with me?

Ain't been no good son to my parents (Parents)
Lost boy, I'm errant (I'm errant)
No time for them, got errands
Can't hide, the flaws too glaring
Yeah, yeah

Can't seem to figure this shit out
Empty rooms in a big house
Crowded rooms, see myself out
Yeah

In a shell made of self-doubt (Woah)
Full of fear with my chest out
Wife checking in, but I'm checked out
(Woah), yeah

Every off day feelin' stressed-out (Yeah)
Fuck a break, what's next now? (Let's go)
Heartaches and let downs (It's me), yeah

Runaway boy, runaway, yeah
Runaway boy, runaway, yeah
Runaway boy, runaway, yeah (Runaway)
Runaway boy, runaway, yeah (Ooh), yeah

Run away from yourself
Run away when it get rough (Let's go)
Fuck they talkin' 'bout help?
Bitch I'm off of these drugs (Uh-huh)
Been that way since a child, boy, you'll never be enough
They try to get too close (Go), I take off in a rush
Who the fuck am I gonna talk to? (Who) Even myself, can't trust, yeah
Still that same lil broken boy, ain't nothing new about it (Ain't nothin' new)
Truth lookin' right in my eyes like what you gonna do about it?

Runaway boy, runaway, yeah
Runaway boy, runaway, yeah
Runaway boy, runaway, yeah (Runaway)
Runaway boy, runaway, yeah (Ooh)