"Missing You Instead" lyrics

Wasted moments 'til there's nothing left
Golden caskets filled with regrets
Funny how a good thing's so bad for me
Tryna get it right but I'm playing for the wrong team

I've been saying shit that I don't mean
To make this heartbreak make-believe
We called it "love", but now, it's just war

I'm so sick of telling everyone I wish you were dead
'Cause the truth is I don't hate you—I just hate that you left
I've been filling up my mind with things I wanna forget
And I should be moving on but I'm just missing you instead

Holding on tight, just a couple feet from grace
And I'm losing my head tryna get you off my brain
'Cause it kills me to admit that I would do it all again
I'm still holding on tight, just a couple feet from grace

I've been saying shit that I don't mean
To make this heartbreak make-believe
We called it "love", but now, it's just war

I'm so sick of telling everyone I wish you were dead
'Cause the truth is I don't hate you—I just hate that you left
I've been filling up my mind with things I wanna forget
And I should be moving on but I'm just missing you instead

Why is it that every time I'm boarding up my walls
You're right there to break in?
Oh, all I ever wanted was for you t walk these halls
But I watched as you left

I'm so sick of telling everyone I wish you were dead
'Cause the truth is I don't hate you—I just hate that you left
I've been filling up my mind with things I wanna forget
And I should be moving on but I'm just missing you instead

Just missing you instead