"Swansong" lyrics

I'm standing in the aftermath
Searching for the strength to carry on
I'm holding on to the memory
Since the years that you've been gone

The pain runs deep, it's a wound that never heals
My heart aches for you, your absence is all I feel
In the silence of my mind, I hear your voice calling back to mine
I still spiral through circles, through circles in my perpetual unraveling

It's not getting better
The weight your absence brings
This is an open letter
One I know you'll never read
Sometimes I feel
You looking over my shoulder
And sometimes I grieve
Knowing you'll never get older

My mind's consumed by misery
Since the night you took your life
Your suicide has left me struggling to survive

These nights perpetuate and these days will fade to gray
My world feels empty since you have slipped away
Your absence carries on, a bittersweet swansong
Every step that I take feels like a promise I break to keep your memory
To keep your memory alive

It's not getting better
The weight your absence brings
This is an open letter
One I know you'll never read
Sometimes I feel
You looking over my shoulder
And sometimes I grieve
Knowing you'll never get older

With every beat of my heart
I'll keep your memory alive
My brother, you will survive
I'll never let your legacy die
I'll never let your legacy die

You may have taken your life
But I had everything to lose
In my heart, you will survive
I still live for you
I still live for you
I still live for you
I still live for you