"Wreckage" lyrics

I want to feel life leave these hands
Convinced I should not exist without worth as a man
A failure I have been cast
My identity is a vacant mask
Been hiding this for years, so here's my final act

The nails in Your wrist cut the blades from mine
God, I tried

I'm blinded on a midnight drive
I'm dying for Your light

I'm in a head-on collision
Burned past all recognition
Breathing in smoke and dust
Taste the dirt, fuel, and blood
This reoccurring condition
Drives me to it over and over and over
I'm piling up the wreckage
Is this the only way to end it?
I need a miracle!

God, You get more lost with every suicidal thought
I'm stranded directionless, fatally flawed

Where were You when they deemed me worthless?
Where are You when I'm struck by serpents
When depression breaks the surface
When I'm cold, when I'm lying unconscious?

Heart struggling to hear it's calling
Heart struggling to hear it's calling

I'm blinded on a midnight drive
I'm dying for Your light

I'm in a head-on collision
Burned past all recognition
Breathing in smoke and dust
Taste the dirt, fuel, and blood
This reoccurring condition
Drives me to it over and over and over
I'm piling up the wreckage
Is this the only way to end it?
I need a miracle!

If You love as you say You love
Then give me something that's tangible
If You say You're always in control
Then stop my hand and pull the gun from my throat

Salvage my soul
Reclaim this life or I swear I'll end it myself

I'm in a head-on collision
Burned past all recognition
Breathing in smoke and dust
Taste the dirt, fuel, and blood
This reoccurring condition
Drives me to it over and over and over
I'm piling up the wreckage
Is this the only way to end it?
I'm piling up the wreckage
Is this the only way to end it?
I need a miracle!