"Descension" lyrics

I'm done wasting my tears
Gotta start facing my fears
I got too complacent
These bad memories, invasive
I'm done wasting my tears (Vacant, can't wait 'til you make it)
Gotta start facing my fears (My ways feelings faded)
I got too complacent (I'm always sedated)
These bad memories, invasive

Tonight I'm over it
These nights I won't forget
I'm not gonna waste my breath
Those empty promises
So fast, it stunts my growth
I got low, got high then I got low, switch sides
I fill my brain with sulfur
I take the over under
I feel my heart beat backwards
I'm getting ready for rapture
I'm afraid of my pride
Baby, I'm too scared to look you in the eyes
Tryna make sense of it, tryna make it right
It's like tryna make friends with somebody in disguise
I've been procrastinating, I cut deep, it was lacerating
I'm so sick of the masquerading
I don't feel like masturbating right now
I'm out of confidence
Yeah baby, I deal with the consequences
Hasn't been quiet since
I've been buffing up my tolerances, yeah
Prep my body for descension
You used my love, it was a weapon
No, I can't see around the deception
Need a way out, I need my medicine

I'm done wasting my tears
Gotta start facing my fears
I got too complacent
These bad memories, invasive
I'm done wasting my tears (Vacant, can't wait 'til you make it)
Gotta start facing my fears (My ways feelings faded)
I got too complacent (I'm always sedated)
These bad memories, invasive