"ok getting older" lyrics

I stopped drinking
Don't smoke weed
I want to know me sober
My friends think I'm boring now
Guess I'm getting older

I stopped talking
To my dad
Weight lifted from my shoulder
I'm better off not seeing him
But maybe when I'm older

Loved my grandma so damn much
Died when I was 12
If she knew that I kiss girls
Would she love me still?

Saw my sister
Graduate
Proud of her I told her
Saw her through her first heartbreak
Guess she's getting older

My friends mother
Died last week
Didn't get to know her
She was only 55
That's not even old

My girlfriend says I'm too closed off
I'm trying not to be
I don't wanna reach the end
And not be the best of me

If I could find
The younger me
Hug her and I'd hold her
Say you have everything you need
I'm ok getting older