"instructions for getting by" lyrics

I was under the bedsheet, bleach soaked, I was patient
Get home, my head's all split in two
Hung up in the bedroom, comedowns surround you
Held you tighter than they ever did

Ain't that the life that you wanted?
Too scared to wake up and face it
Aren't you ashamed of the old me?
All of the moments you wasted

Wading in the ocean, drowning on the surface
Holding the shoreline like a cross
Sunlight is gone now
Get dressed, go home now
Dying the same place you grew up

Ain't that the life that you wanted?
Too scared to wake up and face it
Aren't you ashamed of the old me?
All of the moments you wasted

Ain't that the life that you wanted?
Too scared to wake up and face it
Aren't you ashamed of the old me?
All of the moments you wasted