"watch me fall" lyrics

Watching 'em burn in my hand
[?] right through my skull
Sometimes when the leaves start to fall
Swear that they sink into my skin
Well his eyes met mine in the rearview mirror
There ain't a song he hasn't sung
Points his finger in the middle of his chest and says
Fear is the balance to the comfort of my love
So I'll take it as it comes

'Cause ain't no god or light in the fog
Is ever gonna save my heart
It's just my own reflection in that crystal ball
The same way it's been from the start
I'm not afraid anymore
Lauren talks about you all the time
She found her Jesus in the soil
Hoping one day I find mine
I'll plant a garden just for you
Watch the flowers bloom and die all the while I'm dying to bloom