"Always Memphis" lyrics

If I'm not what you want
Then please let me go
Let's just be real
There is no better time than now

I don't wanna go on hurting
I would love to stop pretending
I am done with starting over
I am over getting better

Always apart
Always whenever
Always empty
Always [?]

And these days, they just seem lonely
They're not getting any brighter
We are lying to one another
By admitting there's a future
Why do I even bother?

I don't see me in your mirror
The road that we are taking
Does not go any further

Always together
Always undone
Always losing
Always Memphis

I miss the ideal of us
Never the real us
Never your real trust
That's the pretend us

Always apart
Always whenever
Always empty
Always [?]

Always together
Always undone
Always losing
Always Memphis