"FTW" lyrics

Why am I so self-destructive, I throw my hands up, I say fuck it
Go down a road of hopelessness and then I hope for somethin'
But there ain't nothin' there, only the lonely road is
I know it's always open, doesn't hold no grudges or emotions

It just holds a spot for you when you get overloaded
It's like it's waiting on us, it's always hangin' over
Just waiting for us to throw it in just a moment's notice
And it'll always be right there to catch you at your lowest

And then we relapse, spendin' nights talkin' bout how we need rehab
We say me messed up, but sit back, and we laugh
'Cause it's easier than hearing real feedback
Or talking bout the homies that we lost that we can't get back

Sad clowns up in a concrete circus
Tryna chase our dreams, tryna fulfill this purpose
We never get a chance to find out where the hurt is
So we say fuck the world and then we draw the curtains

Numb the pain inside to feel alright, screamin'
Fuck the world I don't care, fuck the world I don't care
Rage and fight to feel alive, screamin'
Fuck the world I don't care, fuck the world I don't care

We bottle it up with bottles and drugs and lots of this stuff
It's costing us love and blocking our light
Lockin' us up, we losin' the fight, but talkin' it up
And actin' like we livin' the life, but we really not

We terrified of dyin' from these additions we hidin'
Getting high and staying up in the night and we writing
Love letters to the ones in our lives
In case we overdose in the night, damn

A grim reality this fentanyl's in everything
It's Russian Roulette, but this addiction's got it grab on me
We losing people every day it's such a fuckin' tragedy
I've been floating in the clouds, it's time to get some gravity

God have some mercy on my sanity, get me back to happy me
I'm fuckin' up my relationship
This man has been the love of my life
The light of my life, I'm pushing him right, out of the door
And I can't put up no fight

Numb the pain inside to feel alright, screamin'
Fuck the world I don't care, fuck the world I don't care
Rage and fight to feel alive, screamin'
Fuck the world I don't care, fuck the world I don't care

Numb the pain inside to feel alright, screamin'
Fuck the world I don't care, fuck the world I don't care
Rage and fight to feel alive, screamin'
Fuck the world I don't care, fuck the world I don't care

Numb the pain inside to feel alright, screamin'
Fuck the world I don't care, fuck the world I don't care

We bottle it up with bottles and drugs and lots of this stuff
It's costing us love and blocking our light
Lockin' us up, we losin' the fight, but talkin' it up
Actin' like we livin' the life, but we really not