"The 22" lyrics

You can't unsee what I saw
You can't get back what I lost
I left home a kid and I came back a fully grown man
Lost both of my legs and 5 of my friends

And nothing makes sense

I never thought I'd be staring
Down the barrel of my own gun
Oh Lord can I still go to heaven
I've got nowhere else left to run

You can't have back who I was
I'm still the one that you loved
I can't expect you to live with a man you don't know
So if you have to go fight you
I won't
Hate you
I don't

I never thought I'd be staring
Down the barrel of my own gun
Oh Lord can I still go to heaven
After all the things that I've done

Seems so damn easy one shot and I'm free
If only it'd only kill me
But the truth is you see
That's not how it'd be

I've lost a wife
5 brothers
My kids and the man that I was
I thought that I left the front lines
But the fight for my life rages on

We've lost 21 soldiers in only a day
And that's the unthinkable truth
So I'll lay down my gun
And I'll solider on and I will not be 22
Yea, I'll lay down my gun
I'll solider on and I will not be 22