"Candy Cane" lyrics

How'd I get back here at this?
Another sleepless night dismissed
It might take a day to get back
And figure out what I missed
How'd I get back here at this?
My knuckles white clenched into fists
I might need a day to get back
And figure out what I missed

I've been losing sleep for days playing this game
Been using up again my ways to kill off this pain
I'd bail out if it made me free
I'd run but I can barely breathe

How'd I get back here at this?
Another cheap attempt at bliss
It might take more than this bottle
To forget about what I missed
How'd I get back here at this?
I'm feeling torn just to exist
I guess I need more time to process
Everything I dismissed

I've been losing you for days playing this game
I've been using up again my ways to kill off the pain
My reasons propped up on this candy cane
It cures my stroke of bad luck and my heart attack of shame
I'd bail out if it made me free
I'd bail out if it made you see
I'd run but I can barely breathe

I'd rather run away, crawl away
Than have you perceive my slow decay
I can barely breathe and these cuts heal but they don't bleed
We could have a knock-down-drag-out or face what's been the case
But it could end up in disgrace

What if we tried to relocate it?
Would it even change a single thing?

How'd I get back here at this?
Another sleepless night dismissed
It might take a day to get back
And figure out what I missed
I've been using it to drown out all this

Pain, pain, pain

I'd rather run away, crawl away
Than have you perceive my slow decay
I can barely breathe and these cuts heal but they don't bleed
We could have a knock-down-drag-out or face what's been the case