".Americanblood." lyrics

I don't wanna go out tonight
Find a show on a Saturday night
I'd rather stay here and wait
Sit alone playing video games
I got enough friends
No one else needs to know my name
And yeah, I know my face is aging
And it's okay, yeah, it's okay
But it's so cold, humanity grows old
The man in me soaks up American blood
And I'm so scared that all of my worst fears
Have followed me out here, I'm mad at myself

I try to keep my head up, my head up
I try to keep myself from feeling this way
I'm tired and I'm fucked up, in this rest stop
It's only in my head but it's not gonna change

It goes on and on, so electric
Like a full fledged panic inside
And I know you said that it's not my fault
But the truth is just so easy to hide

I gotta keep my head up, my head up
I gotta keep myself from feeling ashamed
I'm tired and I'm fucked up, and I can't stop
It's only in my head but it's not gonna change

Well, it burns slow
Somewhere inside and nobody knows
That I'm here, stoned
Drinking alone and out of control

I gotta keep my head up, my head up
I gotta keep myself from feeling ashamed
I'm tired 'cause I'm fucked up, baby, I know that
It's only in my head but it's not gonna change