"My Own Party" lyrics

Always feeling like an outsider
At my own party
Making up excuses for my absence
But I'm not sorry

I picked up the bottle
And I let myself down
It hurts much harder
When you don't recognize yourself in the mirror

I could change the world
And you wouldn't even notice
I could buy a house
And you couldn't even care less

Stop dragging me down
Stop dragging me
Stop dragging me down

I've walked the streets of loneliness road
Far too many times
Tried to find somewhere to call my real home
There's no easy ride

I put down the bottle
And I went with my heart
It gets much bette
When you finally stop playing the part

I could change the world
And you wouldn't even notice
I could buy a house
And you couldn't even care less

Stop dragging me down
Stop dragging me
Stop dragging me down

Around and around
My mind it goes
I jump right off this ferris wheel
To a whole new place where no one goes

Around and around
My mind it flows
With thoughts that I just can't control
Like an old TV with no remote

You keep calling me crazy
But that's not right
You can't just tell me
How to live my life

I could change the world
And you wouldn't even notice
I could buy a house
And you couldn't even care less

I could be that girl
But you wouldn't even notice
You wouldn't even notice
Stop dragging me down

I could change my name
I could start again
Stop dragging me down
Stop dragging me down
Stop dragging me
Stop dragging me
Stop dragging me down

I could change the world
And you wouldn't even notice
I could buy a house
And you couldn't even care less

I could start again
I should be that girl
I could change the plan
Should be that girl

Quit my job
Change my name
Fall from grace
Start again

Shave my head
Down the stairs
Throw it up
I don't care

I should be that girl
I should be that girl