"My Adulthood" lyrics

I've been living like a child all my adulthood
Waiting for a man to take my place
There's a river of denial runs through my adulthood
I don't know who owns this face

I've wasted every day of my adulthood
I've spilled it on the ground like rain
I don't know when this became my adulthood
Since I refused to change a thing

My adulthood is just a name I took
From the other adults that I saw
And little did I know, nobody ever grows
They just pretend that it's all like before

I'm way past the salad days of my adulthood
Not even mirrored shades can hide that truth
I thought I'd run away from my adulthood
Since I escaped the cage of my youth

My adulthood is a masquerade I took
From the other adults that I knew
And little did I know, nobody ever grows
They just carry on as children do
Like I've carried all my adulthood
This thing I had to do
Suspend my adulthood, so every day I could
Be free from you