"I Hope You Understand" lyrics

I had a dream you killed me
Bread knife to my throat
You cracked a smile and kissed me
And you cut me like a loaf

But lying on the gurney
Bleeding like a pig
I took your hands and worried
How without me you'd live

Even when it's hurting
I hope you understand what you are to me
I hope you understand what you are to me

And maybe I deserve it
I hope you understand what you are to me
I hope you understand what you are to me

I wanna take you with me
Airplane food for two
I'll put you in my suitcase
And come out barely bruised

I'm so scared of the distance
I'm scared of how you feel
When you're back in his living room
And I'm holding back tears

Now I'm sucking on a stranger
And I'm picturing you move
You speak to me in languages
You learned in boarding school

Even when it's hurting
I hope you understand what you are to me
I hope you understand what you are to me

And maybe I deserve it
I hope you understand what you are to me
I hope you understand what you are to me

I don't wanna move out west
Wait on tables in Venice
Beg my brother for money and a credit card for the rest
Falling sicker and sicker of the bartering with myself
Sign my life to a label,
Getting famous and getting shelved
No I don't wanna fol-
I don't wanna follow

Do you have anything to say?
What do I have to say?
Anything else?

Even when it's hurting
I hope you understand what you are to me
I hope you understand what you are to me

And maybe I deserve it
I hope you understand what you are to me
I hope you understand what you are to me