"Can't Keep Up" lyrics

Weekend outside for two hours, I'm wrecked
Lonely but broke, so I stay in instead
Travel is just forgetting for a while
I get it now, I finally understand the style

They tell me this is a great place to be
I look around and ask them what they see
Convenience isn't happiness, I know that
Safe on the outside, broken on the inside fact

Can't keep up with a life I didn't choose
Can't keep up, running someone else's race
Can't keep up, but I'm tired of pretending
Can't keep up and I think that's okay

Forty years old, still chasing someone's dream
Pushed by expectations more than it seems
Depression running quiet under the surface
No one talks about it, that's the real purpose

The city moves, the people rush on by
I sit inside and watch the hours die
Exhausted by the performing of it all
The weight of being fine before the fall

Can't keep up with the version they expect
Can't keep up, and I won't fake it anymore
Can't keep up so I'm slowing down
Can't keep up I'm finding my own floor

I am the driver of my life
Not the passenger of someone else's plan
Even lost, even slow, even tired
I'd rather be real than pretend I can

Can't keep up and that's the truth
Can't keep up but I'm still standing here
Can't keep up with everything at once
Can't keep up one honest step from here