"Focus" lyrics

I sat down to work but your name was in the margins
Every line I wrote somehow circled back to you
I tried to concentrate but the room kept rearranging
Every corner held some version of the things we used to do

It's not that I'm obsessed, it's just that you're embedded
Somewhere between the logical and everything I feel
I keep telling myself this is temporary
But you've been living rent-free in my head for weeks and it's real

Can't focus when you're on my mind like this
Can't focus, drowning in every memory I missed
You're a melody that I can't shake loose
Beautiful distraction, beautiful excuse

Three alarms and I still couldn't get it started
Kept replaying something that you said in passing once
A throwaway remark that you've already forgotten
But I've been turning it like a coin between my thumbs

I've got deadlines stacking and a list I can't get through
But the only thing that's loading is a memory of you
Tell me how to file this under something I can function with
Because right now you're everything and nothing else exists

Can't focus when you're taking up this space
Can't focus, seeing nothing but your face
You're a melody that won't resolve at all
Beautiful distraction, beautiful free fall

Maybe I don't want to clear my head
Maybe lost is where I want to be
If this is what distraction feels like
Then don't bring me back to clarity

Can't focus, beautifully out of line
Can't focus, losing track of space and time
You're the melody that won't dissolve
Beautiful distraction I will never solve