"Abandoned" lyrics

Gettin' wicked (Yeah)
But don't get it twisted (Uh-uh)
I ain't trippin', know that pistol with me (Yeah, yeah)
Ridin' through the city (Uh)
Mindin' my own business (Yeah)
Vibe with my own bitches (Yeah)
Get high with my own niggas (Stay with Vegas on the wave, uh)

I say don't say you love me now
Been betrayed so many times, I feel like love don't let me down
I been played so many times, I feel like fuck it

Yeah, they say love hurt, but pain heals
Yeah, I don't know what's worse if that ain't real
Every day, I wake up starin' at the man in the mirror
I see stains in the mirror, I see pain in the mirror
I see mistakes made, tryna get this paper, yeah
Fake friends wanna be me, hey, yeah
Just to maintain, bein' me gets crazy, yeah
Shit ain't the same, but niggas, they don't change
Yeah, uh
I know that bitch don't love me, but she say it every chance she get, mhm
I know that bitch ain't for me, but I fuck her every chance I get, mhm
Before I blame anybody, I'ma blame myself
'Cause I jumped in the game knowin' they wasn't playin' fair, yeah
And I jumped on that plane knowin' I was high as hell
And my heart stopped 'cause I OD'ed, but I thank God I'm here
I spazzed out in the hospital and got hauled to jail
Got out with no missed calls like ain't nobody care
And I was all the way in Milwaukee, damn
Derez De'Shon

I say don't say you love me now
Been betrayed so many times, I feel like love don't let me down
I been played so many times, I feel like—
Don't say you love me now
Been betrayed so many times, I feel like love don't let me down
I been played so many times, I feel like fuck it

Every time I close my eyes, I think about that night
When a bullet went hit my truck, life flashed before my eyes
Layin' on that ground, I'm prayin' to God that I don't die
Layin' on that ground, I'm beggin' God it ain't my time
How all these rap niggas keep dyin'? Crazy
Feds talkin' to us, tryna hide us in cages
Every day, it's gettin' harder to provide for my babies
Every day, I'm dodgin' charges and watchin' for haters

Man, this shit crazy, like for real, bro
I never in a million years would've thought, like
This is what come with it
Like a nigga sittin' like, "Damn, bro, I finally made it"
But damn, this ain't what I want, this not how I dreamed
Yeah, man
I'm talkin' 'bout family change, partners change
Everything change and they say you changed
When you adjust to it
It's crazy, like
A dream turned into a nightmare
You like, "Damn, I don't want it, I'm good"