"Mosquito" lyrics

I'm stuck in my head
Think of all the things I could've said
I'll run away its just how I start
Maybe I was just ugly from the start

I remember the songs that freed me in my head keeping me safe locked away
I said someday the worlds gonna change
Maybe my tune changes everyday

Stuck in my head
Thinking of all the things I could've said
I'll try and bring you back to life
For one last selfish night
All these nights wondering who I could've been instead I'm just Mosquito finding blood

In the face of the world I stand still
In the face of you I'm still blue
I can feel my bones crack under my own weight
My bones feel the time pass forever blue

I won't live this life under this weight
I'm just so caught up in my own race
Sometimes it feels like I'm waiting for life to start
Hard bargains the old family curse
Steady going nowhere a car ride home
Just doesn't feel the same anymore