"Actuality" lyrics

I took a trip to the past
To look for the old me, see what I had
Now I know how to last
Maybe it's not the greatest trait I lacked

The veil has lifted, I can see through the clouds, my newfound
Visions have blessed my conscience, break outta the crowd

Take it back, take it back
You'll never understand the mindfulness you lack
Outta whack, outta whack
The picture grew and grew beyond what I knew

Never ever gonna be, what you expected to see

(Life lessons, are born from obsession)
My eyes are open wide to thee
Take a second, take a second to breathe
The tension melts away
Reveal reality
No progression in a lack of expression
Life lessons are born from obsession
Now I see through comprehension
Actuality

My head starts to spin and spin
Before I know it, I'm all the way in
I can feel it in my gut
I'm stuck in eternal pain

I can't see anything
Nothing seems to change
All my thoughts, forever on display
I have no one to blame

Make the most of negativity
This is the truth in front of me
Make the most, negativity
This is actuality

I feel insane, I feel insane

Fuck it

I feel insane, these thoughts will always remain
I feel fuckin' insane, these thoughts hammered in my brain