"Smile I Fake" lyrics

I'm afraid of who I was, not what I've been through
I'm not the same, I have my days, I can come unglued
I might be my own problem or why I got em
I'm likely at the bottom of the bottle

I've been on a bender for three weeks straight
I'm starting to hate my ways
Well, I love the way that my misery tastes
It's bittersweet like the smile I fake
Like the smile I fake

Doobie

Head full of loose screws, I'mma loose cannon
Tryna put my card down but I'm too damaged
I've been hot for so long that I'm still landing
Always been the little man at the back band and
Walk around with a fake smile when I hate smilin'
But I act like I ain't somethin'
You never know how to do you when you ain't round
Living in the belly of the devil's little playground

I've been on a bender for three weeks straight
I'm starting to hate my ways
Well, I love the way that my misery tastes
It's bittersweet like the smile I fake
Like the smile I fake

I might be my own problem or why I got em
I'm likely at the bottom of the bottle

(I've been on a bender for three weeks straight)
(I'm starting to hate my ways)
Well, I love the way that my misery tastes
It's bittersweet like the smile I fake
Like the smile I fake