"Nostalgic Drive" lyrics

I hurt my mom and all my fam when I was on the drugs
I never called to say I love you but I'd text the plug
It hurt my soul when she had told me she had given up
But I can't blame her I was not around and not enough

I couldn't see that what's important was inside my grip
And all the money sex and drugs it wasn't meaning shit
Cause I was fucking getting high and I was getting rich
It took me having everything to want the love that I had spent

And I was standing in the cell when I had called my dad
I told him that I love him and I wish that I could change the past
It's in those moments that you see who really have your back
I posted bond and came back home I'm grateful that we made it last

He lost his battle to the cancer I still got regrets
All them arguments and shit I wish I never said
Cause that's the type of stuff that haunts you when they fucking dead
I've done too much up in my past to ever go & get ahead

I don't want to wait too long
I don't waste my time
I just wanna be right here
Till it's over
Till it's over

I don't want to wait too long
I don't want to waste my time
I just wanna be right here
Till it's over
Till it's over

It's crazy all the promises they make that never stay
Damn it's crazy I could fall in love but then I'd push away
When I'm never feeling worthy cause I'm holding onto shame
That's from moments in the past that I just wish I could erase

Like the days when it was me shaking facing my disease
Frozen in my bed and looking out on my beliefs
When I was watering a seed soon would sprout into a tree
Then it burned into my heart and spread into the seams

Don't take my life before I get to find
The inner reasons why we living just to go & die
We born again to lay alone it seems a waste of time
I just wanna feel some peace for I say goodbye

My time will come and so will yours we'll see what lies ahead
Is all the life we thought was real really just a thread
That we imagined we created only in our heads
And now we finally know the truth but we fucking dead

I don't want to wait too long
I don't want to waste my time
I just wanna be right here
Till it's over
Till it's over

I don't want to wait too long
I don't want to waste my time
I just wanna be right here
Till it's over
Till it's over

Okay we grew up on that sidewalk
Bike lanes and high talk
I ain't felt this way since the first song that I dropped
Thinking bout the way we used ride around the lights off
Dreaming of the future we'd create. I pulled the heist off
Yeah
Wonder where the time went
Wonder what it's all for
Got these thoughts in my head
Cuz I ain't felt the same
Since I lost all my friends
No
And I felt a pain
Worse then hearing that he dead
Frozen right there
Thought that I could fight fear
Feeling life is unfair
Lost in a broken mirror
My depression my reflection in you
That's my lesson
Time's blessing all we got is the truth
All we got is a few days what do I do?
If I already made the same pain wash on to you
I got these thoughts all in my head I hope I make it time
And that ain't too late save em when they closing they eyes

I don't want to wait too long
I don't want to waste my time
I just wanna be right here
Till it's over
Till it's over

I don't want to wait too long
I don't want to waste my time
I just wanna be right here
Till it's over
Till it's over