"Chaos" lyrics

I feel like I just woke up at the bottom of the ocean for the very first time
Took a breath of water and I'm drowning just fine
Look up at the surface and refracted sunlight
But the more that I climb

Feels like I'm falling further into places where the nothingness and chaos collide
I think I've come to grips that there's no way I'll survive
The last thing I remember is your autumn brown hair
I can see you down there
I can see you down

I can see you down there I can see you down
I can see you down there I can see you down

(I said I said)
My head keeps pounding and these drugs kicked in they just won't work
(You said you said)
Just keep on drowning cause it makes me smile to see you get hurt

I wanna make things harder on myself

I keep my eyes wide open and I'm seconds from the surface as the currents converge
My hands can feel the air but still my body's submerged
A cold Atlantic tide immobilizes my nerves and I don't know what you heard

But when I woke up screaming I was desolate and desperate a horrible sight
Abandoned on an unfamiliar shore in the night
I'm lost inside the ocean no one ever found where
I can see you down there
I can see you down

I can see you down there I can see you down
I can see you down there I can see you down
Days grow older, nights get colder, the sky seems closer now

I said I said my head keeps pounding
You said you said just keep on drowning

I said I said my head keeps pounding and these drugs kicked in they just won't work
You said you said just keep on drowning cause it makes me smile to see you get hurt

I wanna make things hard
(Days grow older, nights get colder, the sky seems closer now)

I wanna make things harder on myself