"Jackie's Triumph" lyrics
Mmm, aye, uh what's been up
Quarter past 8, still don't know quite what I'm finna
Get into, isn't you supposed to put on a suit for Easter?
I might just spend this one in the bleachers
I might just cook grits, enjoy my leisure, that sound gravy
But still save a seat for me, would you baby?
I know you been singing since the first service, early birding it
When you worship, ain't burdened with these life cares
But how quickly says turn to nightmares
That phone call surreal, not quite a light scare
Them words located my ribs and put a knife there
Wait, not Jackie, my God, wait not her
The one that plays the keys and sings, the one that reads your word
The one that raised her sons as kings, not first, second or third
My first lesson was seek first the kingdom, love is a verb
Now blood is leaking internally, plus your back is broken
At your L2 and L3 vertebrae
Feel like I'm living in that song Roses off that Kanye album
Where he opened up with "Heard 'Em Say"
Grew up in Murder state
I'm used to hearing that my homies got shot, left 'em ruptured
Can't fix the herbal way
This ain't the time for Eastern medicine doc, I'm here
I'm her next of kin, let me sign the paper, take her and operate
And now we wait
Over the next couple of weeks I took pictures with nurses
With tear stains on my shirt, my eyes were bloodshot
And even after her release she went back in a couple of weeks
For the blood clots, uh
But now she's happy, 'cause she came home
And her family's giving all the move that she can muster
Back in the hospital she seen her brothers
She seen her cousins from my Auntie Linda
Been overdue for them to ketchup, yeah she got the mustard
She never let up, yeah she cussed the nurses out
When they just treat her like a number
And not like the queen of things and my mother
My dad got mad when male friends visited
Shit, he looked at them niggas like boy you bet not be her lover
He said we ain't been together in years
But we still ain't signed no papers
So technically you my rib til we under
At times I wonder why God would let her feel the pain like this
With no umbrella, stuck out in the rain like this
Blink of an eye, things wasn't the same like this
But she still breathing and we made like this
For the second time this week I saw her play the piano and sing her song
As I cried I just sing along
'Cause we know where this thing is headed
'Cause Jackie's walking now, it's a matter of time before she run
Said oh my God, our star, our queen, our Earth, our Mars
Has seen her darkest days and now
From near and far, they call, they send their love, their cards
There came a time when we needed it all
And you showed up
Look who showed up
The family needed someone to hold up
Our arms, 'cause harm fell upon the greatest of all of us
Refuse to believe you deserve this, can't be what karma does
I damn near feel like I went to nursing school now
I learned a gang of new terminology
Like NG tube, that's the one that goes through your nasal passage
And sucks the food out
They said you can't eat for three weeks
I heard that shit and I tried to just breathe deep
Like ocean bottoms, new methods, I know they got 'em
Why ain't they trying some shit that help you get sleep?
When you passed out off the meds and started saying the names
Of family members that's no longer with us, we was all scared
Bartee Mitchell Smith died long before '96
So if you see that light don't walk there
That OxyContin wasn't strong enough, so they gave you Dilaudid
They ask you when's your birthday, you forgot it
They asked you do you know where you at
And you said you need to get to stage
'Cause they waiting to hear you speak on the topic
Like no momma, you in Pomona Valley, you up in the hospital
Your words blend together like hot Skittles
One nurse said he praying for you, said he know your son's music
And he really sit with the words, he don't only thumb through it
He mosh pit 'em, mmh
Remember when you told me to grab your speaker
Your phone and roll you out the door, 'cause you was done with it
That was before you stop relying on the IV
I see that you're tired but you're not finished
And now look at us, I said look at us
Moved you in next door to where I'm living'
Go on head, play on your grand piano
Ron, Davion, SiR and Daniel got you, that's what you call village
Said oh my God, our star, our queen, our Earth, our Mars
Has seen her darkest days and now
From near and far, they call, they send their love, their cards
There came a time when we needed it all
And you showed up
Quarter past 8, still don't know quite what I'm finna
Get into, isn't you supposed to put on a suit for Easter?
I might just spend this one in the bleachers
I might just cook grits, enjoy my leisure, that sound gravy
But still save a seat for me, would you baby?
I know you been singing since the first service, early birding it
When you worship, ain't burdened with these life cares
But how quickly says turn to nightmares
That phone call surreal, not quite a light scare
Them words located my ribs and put a knife there
Wait, not Jackie, my God, wait not her
The one that plays the keys and sings, the one that reads your word
The one that raised her sons as kings, not first, second or third
My first lesson was seek first the kingdom, love is a verb
Now blood is leaking internally, plus your back is broken
At your L2 and L3 vertebrae
Feel like I'm living in that song Roses off that Kanye album
Where he opened up with "Heard 'Em Say"
Grew up in Murder state
I'm used to hearing that my homies got shot, left 'em ruptured
Can't fix the herbal way
This ain't the time for Eastern medicine doc, I'm here
I'm her next of kin, let me sign the paper, take her and operate
And now we wait
Over the next couple of weeks I took pictures with nurses
With tear stains on my shirt, my eyes were bloodshot
And even after her release she went back in a couple of weeks
For the blood clots, uh
But now she's happy, 'cause she came home
And her family's giving all the move that she can muster
Back in the hospital she seen her brothers
She seen her cousins from my Auntie Linda
Been overdue for them to ketchup, yeah she got the mustard
She never let up, yeah she cussed the nurses out
When they just treat her like a number
And not like the queen of things and my mother
My dad got mad when male friends visited
Shit, he looked at them niggas like boy you bet not be her lover
He said we ain't been together in years
But we still ain't signed no papers
So technically you my rib til we under
At times I wonder why God would let her feel the pain like this
With no umbrella, stuck out in the rain like this
Blink of an eye, things wasn't the same like this
But she still breathing and we made like this
For the second time this week I saw her play the piano and sing her song
As I cried I just sing along
'Cause we know where this thing is headed
'Cause Jackie's walking now, it's a matter of time before she run
Said oh my God, our star, our queen, our Earth, our Mars
Has seen her darkest days and now
From near and far, they call, they send their love, their cards
There came a time when we needed it all
And you showed up
Look who showed up
The family needed someone to hold up
Our arms, 'cause harm fell upon the greatest of all of us
Refuse to believe you deserve this, can't be what karma does
I damn near feel like I went to nursing school now
I learned a gang of new terminology
Like NG tube, that's the one that goes through your nasal passage
And sucks the food out
They said you can't eat for three weeks
I heard that shit and I tried to just breathe deep
Like ocean bottoms, new methods, I know they got 'em
Why ain't they trying some shit that help you get sleep?
When you passed out off the meds and started saying the names
Of family members that's no longer with us, we was all scared
Bartee Mitchell Smith died long before '96
So if you see that light don't walk there
That OxyContin wasn't strong enough, so they gave you Dilaudid
They ask you when's your birthday, you forgot it
They asked you do you know where you at
And you said you need to get to stage
'Cause they waiting to hear you speak on the topic
Like no momma, you in Pomona Valley, you up in the hospital
Your words blend together like hot Skittles
One nurse said he praying for you, said he know your son's music
And he really sit with the words, he don't only thumb through it
He mosh pit 'em, mmh
Remember when you told me to grab your speaker
Your phone and roll you out the door, 'cause you was done with it
That was before you stop relying on the IV
I see that you're tired but you're not finished
And now look at us, I said look at us
Moved you in next door to where I'm living'
Go on head, play on your grand piano
Ron, Davion, SiR and Daniel got you, that's what you call village
Said oh my God, our star, our queen, our Earth, our Mars
Has seen her darkest days and now
From near and far, they call, they send their love, their cards
There came a time when we needed it all
And you showed up
