"Permanent Vacation" lyrics

My daddy said he was on permanent vacation
And he said he's never coming back
Hawaiian shirts and some side relations
I don't know how I'm suppose to deal with that
Eight years old watching grown man lie
Twenty years later and you still don't reply
Ooh
Ooh, yeah

Papa use to call it a generational curse
Probably made it worst
Just a bad excuse to chase a mini skirt
Sneaking off with hoes, Mama off at work
Wasn't just a flirt, you was doing dirt
Playing in the mud, forgot it stained your shirt
Shoved the knife in me, and said it shouldn't hurt, damn
I am just an apple falling off the tree
You picked me from the ground and took a bite of me
You bit into me deep and cut an artery
I wonder if this is how it's suppose to be?
You don't even know
I'm not even gonna get into it, damn

My daddy said he was on permanent vacation
And he said he's never coming back
Hawaiian shirts and some side relations
I don't know how I'm suppose to deal with that

Hold up, I'ma just fast forward time
It's just me and mines, it's that demon hour, 11:59
Sipping out the bottle, pinot was the wine
Think about this girl I met Tinder, huh
Start to tap them digits, I was so relentless
What I didn't mention, that I was committed
Soft monogamy, so pussy's not permitted
'Less it's her permission, that was her position
Side relations, yeah, I probably should have mentioned
Did the unthinkable, Lord forgive 'em
Start to think about my dad and my position
I can't talk no shit 'cause I don't see no difference
What he did is what I'm doing
Fuckboy language, speak it fluent
Walk the path, that's if the shoe fit
And here's the truth, I'm just like you

My daddy said he was on permanent vacation
And he said he's never coming back
Hawaiian shirts and some side relations
I don't know how I'm suppose to deal with that
Eight years old watching grown man lie
Twenty years later and you still don't reply
Ooh
Ooh

I thought you loved me
You said you cared about me
I let you in
I trusted you
And this is how you thank me?
You know what, I can't
I'm done, I'm through
It's over
Goodbye