"Watch My Promise Die" lyrics

Caught in the spiral
Of constant fear
Numb to the sickness
Distance myself from my blessings
Comfort in my sabotage of self
Embracing their poison (with a tightened grasp)
The pen bleeds
Tearing myself from the inside

Run from the light
Watch my promise die

I beg myself not to let you down

As I feel myself sink to the ground
Strip me of my flesh
Take what's left

Swallow the hate
Internalize
Killing desire
Desire to thrive
I let their teeth sink
Toxic venom stirs within
The doubt consumes everything

Is this the path that's meant for me?
How long must I grow to find comfort and peace?
Will the fear subside?

If I give up will I be (able to breathe?)
Staring into hollow eyes
Run from the light
Drowning in my own shame
Run from the light
Shattered reflections of you
Watch my promise die