"Gravity" lyrics

I wanted you to be the last thing on my mind
I wanted you to be the reason I close my eyes
But I can't sleep
And oh God, I wanted to be your high
But everything I said, it went unheard
And everything you saw with eyes straight blurred
Became our downfall

'Cause you say I drink and I smoke and I talk too much
But I know you lied when you said that you just gotta go and save yourself
So hear me out
You know everybody talks, girl
And it means nothing 'till you let it
But if you keep second guessing then there's only gonna be one end

But you can leave if you really want to
And you can run if you feel you have to
Now I'll be fine if you ever ask me
I know it's hard, but no one said it's easy
Falling's easy
But there's only one way up

So I been thinking that I think too much
And I can't sleep, but I can dream of us
And I've been seeing shit like horror cuts
It's burning down, I gotta drown this out
And you said you need me to let this go
But it's who I am, or am I just losing it
'Cause you said jump and I went first but falling's always been my downfall

And you say I drink and I smoke and I talk too much
But I know you lied when you said that you just had enough and save yourself
So hear me out
You know everybody talks, girl
And it means nothing 'till you let it
And if you keep second guessing then there's only gonna be one end

But you can leave if you really want to
And you can run if you feel you have to
And I can drink if I feel I have to
I know it's hard, but I can't feel like i used to
Like I used to
'Cause I used to defy gravity
Defy gravity
Goodbyes keep dragging me
Down
And I'm fighting gravity
Defying gravity
I tried but I keep falling
'Cause falling's easy
But it only brings you down