"Opaque" lyrics

I wear every chapter of my history
Right here upon my shoulder
A hapless captain of some mystery
My eyes already told you

You've seen the ending of the movie
There's nothing to authenticate
Can you see right through me
Cause there was nothing there in the first place?

It's so obvious to the audience
When I need another retake
What I wouldn't give to not be learning
Brand new ways to ache
Can I keep undercover
When there's no more cover to take?
What I wouldn't give to be a little
A little more opaque

No matter how much I protest
I feel my cabin pressure failing
Would I even be reaching for this oxygen
If my friends never made me?
All the self that I've been soothing
Trying to domesticate
The effort I spend proving
There was nothing there in the first place

It's so obvious to the audience
When I need another retake
What I wouldn't give to not be learning
Brand new ways to ache
Can I keep undercover
When there's no more cover to take?
What I wouldn't give to be a little
A little more opaque

What I wouldn't give
What I wouldn't give
What I couldn't give
What I wouldn't give
Oh

What I wouldn't give
What I wouldn't give
What I couldn't give
What I wouldn't give
Oh

It's so obvious to the audience
When I need another retake
What I wouldn't give to not be learning
Brand new ways to ache
Can I keep undercover
When there's no more cover to take?
What I wouldn't give to be a little
A little more opaque