"harder to lie." lyrics

Yeah, I swear I don't even remember your face
All my memories of you are starting to fade
Not spending every night here lying awake
Yeah, I'm doing ok, I swear that I'm ok, yeah

I'm suffocating from self-medicating
And I don't know a way out
When I say I blame you and scream that I hate you
It tastes like blood in my mouth
And I can't face all of my mistakes
So I broke every mirror in this place
I'm suffocating from self-medicating
Like I don't know a way out

Yeah, I swear I don't even remember your face
All my memories of you are starting to fade
Not spending every night here lying awake
Yeah, I'm doing ok, I swear that I'm ok

I keep saying that it gets better with time
Keep telling everybody that I'm doing fine
Yeah, you're not always sitting in the back of my mind
It's really getting harder and harder to lie, yeah

Feeling so hopeless, but you'll never notice
'Cause you know that I won't admit
That you cut me open, here alone and broken
Yeah, you left me so sick
I bite my tongue when it comes to you
But you said that you'd down the drug
Feeling so hopeless, but you'll never notice
Why can't you see what you did?

Yeah, I swear I don't even remember your face
All my memories of you are starting to fade
Not spending every night here lying awake
Yeah, I'm doing ok, I swear that I'm ok

I keep saying life gets better with time
Keep telling everybody that I'm doing fine
Yeah, you're not always sitting in the back of my mind
It's really getting harder and harder to lie, yeah

Harder to lie
Harder to lie, yeah
Harder to lie
Harder to lie

I know my walls are caving in
'Cause you broke me down again and again
Disguise my lies within my skin
I just pretend
I just pretend

Yeah, I swear I don't even remember your face
All my memories of you are starting to fade
Yeah, I swear I don't even remember your face
All my memories of you are starting to fade
Not spending every night here lying awake
Yeah, I'm doing ok, I swear that I'm ok

I keep saying life gets better with time
Keep telling everybody that I'm doing fine
Yeah, you're not always sitting in the back of my mind
It's really getting harder and harder to lie

Harder to lie
Harder to lie, yeah
Harder to lie
Harder to lie, yeah