"clocking in" lyrics

This is the song I never wanted to write
At some point I traded who I was for this life
Or maybe it was the other way around

We all have a box
We just need to fit in it
It works to the benefit of the
Perceptions of society

Tell me who you wanna be
I'll give you my idea of you
Then you have to work towards that goal

Admitting things that I would rather not
Cause maybe you'll find out I ain't what you thought

Pretty soon I'll be at a 9 to 5
Wasting time
Until I die 'cause I got 40 years

So much life is left to live
I'm 25 and so sick of it
But don't tell God or my wife

Cause if they knew how I was really feeling
I'd probably find the guts to finally do it

I wish that I could go to work
Without my family worrying
Cause horses nay
And I write songs like this

How can I just separate
Me the writer and me the great
Cause I'm okay
I'm just clocking in

But writers have to write songs about them
While Tom Holland gets to play SpiderMan
Yet no one really thinks he's Peter Parker
A luxury he gets and I can't

Pretty soon I'll be at a 9 to 5
Wasting time
Until I die 'cause I got 40 years

So much life is left to live
I'm 25 and so sick of it
But don't tell God or my wife

'Cause if they knew that I was suicidal
I'd probably find the guts to finally do it

I guarantee people will
Still ask me if I'm doing fine
When I'm okay
I'm just clocking in