"Lay It In" lyrics

I let the yard grow wild
I let my dreams be defiled
I let myself do the drugs
I let the sink fill up
I let my own heart down so many times
I let my life pass me by
I let the alcohol get me drunk
Let the failures add up
I let the bank account drain
I let the world twist my brain
I let my family drift apart
I let the knife twist my heart
I let my grandfather down
I let live and I left town
I let the ego decide
I let my wounds open wide
I let my art be a job
I let the job steal my soul
I let myself believe lies
I let myself need control
I let the doctors prescribe
I let my credit card decline
I let the fear run my life
I let someone read my mind
I let the nights keep me up
I let the days drag me down
I let the dreams break my heart
I let myself stop making art

Don't let me get in my own way
I hate the way you say my name
Of all the ways to lose my mind
You're one I give my time

If you want to hurt me babe
Lay it in, don't hesitate
Ain't gonna anything the pain away
I let my mind drift, alone all day

I drove drunk every night last week
The laugh track stops suddenly
I hear a silence I don't recognize
Is this the sound of how I feel inside?

I inhaled your life and died
Face down in the bed all night
Can't let myself go out like that
Riding trauma all the way to death?
No, no, no...