"Calculated" lyrics

Can anybody hear me?
I'm feeling sorta small
Can anybody see me?
My head against a wall

They tie me up, put me to sleep
Fed me lies, buried me deep
In my own blood

Now that they're [?]
Why is it so calculated
Happiness is overrated
Why is it so calculated
Cal-cal-calculated
Cal-cal-calculated

I'm feeling kinda lonely
Is anybody else here?
You're not my one and only
I'm accompanied by fear

Walked out the night and came back down
And I'm still not on level ground but I
Can't be found

I think I got 'em irritated
Why is it so calculated
When everything you love is faded
Why is it so calculated
Cal-cal-calculated
Cal-cal-calculated

When the stars are out people talk about emotion
Living day by day with pain I'll never see
There's a tide in you ripping through just like an ocean
It's a storm but you can rise from the debris

I think I got 'em irritated
Why is it so calculated
When everything you love has faded, faded (calculated)
When everything you love
When everything you love (calculated)
When everything you love has been calculated