"Anxious" lyrics

Give me a sec to pull myself up
Why you gotta hold so tightly
Even in my thoughts like
Can't you stop it?
Not a teen anymore but still me
It hurt then, is it so hard to understand?
Ashamed to say it but I always gave a damn
What you thought about me

I'm so restless
I don't know how
It feels like to
Sleep beside you
Without feeling this
This anxious

I still feel tired when I wake up
Like I never closed my eyes once since then
Aged a century in one year
Calling on me and I'd come running
A bit too foolish and I overcomplicate things
I kinda still think you are not that bad

I'm so restless
I don't how
It feels like to
Sleep beside you
Without feeling this
This anxious
Could someone tell me how?
'Cause I'm anxious