"Too Far Gone" lyrics

I'm throwing up on the sidewalk
It's 2am, everybody left
I just embarrassed myself for an hour now I'm sitting in a neighbourhood I don't even recognise
I didn't even want to go out
I kind of thought that it would help just a little
But I know that I'm lying to myself 'cause I know in a weeks time I won't try to realise

This ain't a way to live
So why does everybody brag about it?
I guess it's easier to fill yourself with poison while you're holding onto moments you can glorify

And I've been stuck for a while now
'Cause I've been saying this for three damn years
Am I ever gonna change?
Will I make it out alive?

Or will I crumble, will I fall?
Will anybody even care at all?
Am I destined to be damaged?
Am I too far gone?
Believe me when I say it ain't fair to feel this way
But I'll poison myself 'til I'm too far gone

I'm driving home when I shouldn't
I didn't even remember the drive
How could I be so selfish every time that I feel helpless I cross through every single line
I'm not convinced that I'm living
'Cause if I was I'd be able to feel something
Maybe it's a part of me or maybe it's just hard to see that everyone else can find

There's gotta be a reason
This lifestyle ain't meant for dreamers
But they'll tell you it's okay to waste your twenties away 'cause you're only young for a moment

And I've been stuck for a while now
'Cause I've been saying this for three damn years
Am I ever gonna change?
Will I make it out alive?

Or will I crumble, will I fall?
Will anybody even care at all?
Am I destined to be damaged?
Am I too far gone?
Believe me when I say it ain't fair to feel this way
But I'll poison myself 'til I'm too far gone

And how long will it take
'Till I'm beaten down, bruised and break
Still you can find me in the evening I'll be too far gone
Yeah I'm too far gone