"You" lyrics

All the scars on my body and soul
All the trouble I've known
All the evil things that I say and do
All comes back to

A little boy, back when life was new to me
Hiding in my room, waiting for my mom to leave
I learned to lie, to save her from the truth
I was raped when I was eight years old
On a sunny afternoon

I fall back to the black and white of
Here and now I need to calm down
I think I need to calm down
I'm on my old street
A past that is so hard for me
Looking for a place
That I really do not ever want to see

All the scars on my body and soul
All the trouble I've known
All the evil things I say and do
It all brings me closer to... you

The house is empty as I walk inside
I don't want to be here
I want to stay in denial
I see my demons smiling in the gloom
I have to face this thing
Or I will never leave this room I...see...me
Playing with the older boys
In a house where my mom had told me not to go
They started hurting me
And laughing as they held me down
They broke me as I screamed
Inside the violence and the awful sound

All the scars on my body and soul
All the trouble I have ever known
All the fucked up things I say and do
All brings me closer to you
To you

I am screaming at the mirror
Looking in the eyes of you. Yeah you
I give my joy, all my shame
All the credit and the blame
To you

Now I know why I'm addicted to pain
Yeah I know I am addicted to everything
Now I know what I have to do
I have to kill the monsters for you. For you
I will forgive those damaged boys
That did this awful thing to you. To you
I have to fix this broken heart
I need to be just like a father to you. To you
I have to fix this broken heart
I will always be a safe place for you. For you
I will always be your champion
I will always kill the monsters for you. For you
I give my joy all my shame
All the credit and the blame. To you

Twisted, broken, angry, and free
I am twisted, broken, angry and free
Twisted, broken, angry and free