"To: Myself In Colorado" lyrics

I wanna smell like roses
I wanna be your bride
I wanna pasteurize your words to make them drinkable
I wanna die
I wanna make my own ketchup
I wanna go for a run in the woods
And I'll tell you that I'll be home by sunset so have the table ready for when I return

And it's cold in Colorado but it's warm where I am
And I know things now to treat you better than
Treat you better than
Treat you better than
And I wish I had treated me better than
Treated me better than
Treated me better than
And I wish I had treated you better than
Treated you better than
Cause things were better then

And I don't like nicotine
Or maybe I do
There's something comforting in having your nerves reconstructed and reconstrued
And I'm choking down this water
Even though my stomach hurts worse than it ever has
And I need to focus on my health but health has never been the plan

And it's cold in Colorado but it's warm where I am
And I know things now to treat you better than
Treat you better than
Treat you better than
And I wish I had treated me better than
Treated me better than
Treated me better than
And I wish I had treated you better than
Treated you better than
Cause things were better then