"Post-Boredom" lyrics

I did a terrible thing
And somebody should do something about it
I'm haunted by an eternal return
I never should have allowed it

I broke my own heart
I'm trying to forgive myself

But if it gets too close I gotta kill it
I'm gonna need your help
My annihilation, my annihilation, my annihilation
My annihilation kicked off post boredom

I don't want be a better liar
I don't want to make you think
That what you get is what you see just because you want it
All this muddy water ain't deep

I broke my own heart I'm trying to convince myself
That I can suffer if I want, motherfucker
Just put me back on your shelf
My annihilation, my annihilation, my annihilation
My annihilation started before I did
My annihilation, my annihilation, my annihilation
My annihilation ended before we did

I gave you nothing
You want more?
You'll get more nothing

Come on and give a big man a little thrill
Come on and give a sick man his poison pill
I don't want no harm

I've done it all wrong for so long it feels okay
From up here the parties and funerals, they look the same
When every morning after is the same day
Every morning after is the same day

I want one more last chance, last chance
Make me another mistake
All I can take is everything that I have given away
I walked in with one foot out the door
You knew that I was not gonna stay

I broke my own heart
I'm trying to forgive myself
I don't give a goddamn about the magic
Just put me under your spell

My annihilation, my annihilation, my annihilation
My annihilation kicked off post boredom

I gave you nothing
You want more?
You'll get more