"harder than it looks softer than youd think" lyrics

I wish I could forget you
But it's harder than it looks
A cult of personality
Is always cooler in the books
I wrote a couple songs for you
I pray to god you'd never hear
But if you do
I hope the words cut through
And my voice rings in your ears

I hate the summer days
The time that you had went away
And I loathe the winter nights
They're cold and dark
Just like my life

I can't breathe another breath
Or right a wrong god since you left
Nothing feels right
I don't feel right
Lovesick car ride
And I'll drive all night

And I should be held accountable
For letting you get away with
The things that you get away with
I'm using my pain as payment

I wish I could forget you
But it's harder than it looks
A cult of personality
Is always cooler in the books
I wrote a couple songs for you
I pray to god you'd never hear
But if you do
I hope the words cut through
And my voice rings in your ears

They say the good die young
That's why I'll live forever
All is fair in love and trust
Let's go to war together
It's just a part of life
Another par tonight
Another lost on me
Another cut to bleed

And I should be held accountable
For letting you get away with
The things that you get away with
I'm using my pain as payment

I wish I could forget you
But it's harder than it looks
A cult of personality
Is always cooler in the books
I wrote a couple songs for you
I pray to god you'd never hear
But if you do
I hope the words cut through
And my voice rings in your ears