"Debilitated" lyrics

Secrets of the night, make everyone go hide
Pretend we're not afraid, but we are terrified inside
Our mind: visualize that everyone has died
Everyone has died, everyone has died, everyone has died
And I try to masquerade the fear inside
But it's taking over, taking over my mind
I don't know how long I can hide, but

I will try
Again, and again to fend off the fear inside
And I will strive, because I must survive
These involuntary dreams
And every time I faint
I wake up in untold pain
Perplexity, absurdity
Tell me please, what's wrong with me?

He says, "I'm sure you're fine"
You think I'm fine?
"I think you're fine
But I will run some tests
For your peace of mind."
"I know how hard it can be
At home, you cook and you clean
I just think you need some sleep."

"And for the dreams,"
(They're more than dreams!)
"They're only dreams
They're just imaginary; fiction; merely fantasy."
"I know you're scared and afraid
But you can't let it persuade you
To feel so dismayed"

I will try
Again, and again to fend off the fear inside
And I will strive, because I must survive
These involuntary dreams
And every time I faint
I wake up in untold pain
Perplexity, absurdity
Tell me please, what's wrong with me?

"Ma'am, I've received the results of your tests
And it appears you have either voluntarily, or involuntarily
Ingested a high dose of a drug called "ketamine"
Is there something you're not telling me?"

No!

I've been drugged, taken advantage of
It must be what's causing all these dreams
It's smothering me, I can hardly breathe
Every time I fall asleep

I will try
Again, and again to fend off the fear inside
And I will strive, because I must survive
These involuntary dreams
And every time I faint
I wake up in untold pain
Perplexity, absurdity
Tell me please, what's wrong with me?