"they all seem so happy" lyrics

I can't feel my heart
It's been robbed and held hostage
I'm drunk on loneliness
Out back weeping shirtless
'Cause life has lost its spark
It's a black and white film strip
Every night delirious
Searching for the purpose

'Cause no one seems to be around me
All alone or when I'm surrounded
These fucked up thoughts
Make my head feel crowded
My eagerness renders me invalid
I tried my best
But they're laughing at me
Wish it had come easier
They all seem so happy

In the wasteland of my thoughts
I search through the ruins
For anything that's left
To turn into profit
Turn into profit
Turn into profit

'Cause no one seems to be around me
All alone or when I'm surrounded
These fucked up thoughts
Make my head feel crowded
My eagerness renders me invalid
I tried my best
But they're laughing at me
Wish it had come easier
They all seem so happy

'Cause no one seems to be around me
All alone or when I'm surrounded
These fucked up thoughts
Make my head feel crowded
My eagerness renders me invalid
I tried my best
But they're laughing at me
Wish it had come easier
They all seem so happy