"Ain't That Mad" lyrics

I was 15 with a bag
Looking at shit that I wish that I had
Been through shit that you couldn't understand
Being black and broke would just get you bagged
Ain't that mad?
I remember times on my own just me and my dad
Seeing mum walk to walk made me mad
All the work on my phone turned me to a man
It's me and myself
And everyday I'm getting older
I'm on this walk alone
And every step I get colder
But as I walk I grow
I'm out on this lonely road
A man can only hold

So much (pain)
I told mum imma be rich when I'm older
I told my nigga O, bro I can't hold up
Then he put me on to the gift of the holder
Then they fold up
I was in the school room, headteacher saying own up
I don't know nobody I'm a loner but I got contacts on my Motorola
I ain't got no heart I'm a donor
I gave one bitch mine I'm a donut
I regret it
Mummy said words can't hurt you but I'll tell you I let it
I had pain in my heart and I fed it
All my pain intense like reading
It's a lot but I'll lay in my bedding
Cause she doesn't know where the fuck where I'm heading
I needed saving and you wasn't there
Correction you didn't care
Look at my balance the shit was unfair
Nigga I was living a mare
Ain't no money in shedding them tears
I learnt how to live in my fears
Everyday I'm counting the years
All I want is money and ears

I was 15 with a bag
Looking at shit that I wish that I had
Been through shit that you couldn't understand
Being black and broke would just get you bagged
Ain't that mad?
I remember times on my own just me and my dad
Seeing mum walk to walk made me mad
All the work on my phone turned me to a man
It's me and myself
And everyday I'm getting older
I'm on this walk alone
And every step I get colder
But as I walk I grow
I'm out on this lonely road
A man can only hold